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What if I died?
Would you even cry?
Would you even care?
Would you even notice me not being there?
Would you grieve over my death?
I mean really grieve?
Would you even miss me being "the boss"?
Would you really mourn my loss?
You see, I doubt you would.
Because we never really were tight.
We'd bicker, yell, scream, and fight.
I never told you that I needed you.
I thought no one cared.
No one ever said "I love you."
I thought no one was ever there.
Or would you be embarassed?
Be ashamed that we were friends?
Would you be afraid to walk in the hallways?
For fear of hearing or being asked that question
"The one that killed herself, was that your friend?"
What would you say? I wonder.
It doesn't matter though.
I don't know if you need me
or ever even needed me.
All I know is that I needed you, need you, and
will need you.
I'm telling you "I love you."
Because by tommorrow,
I won't be with you.
Would you even cry?
Would you even care?
Would you even notice me not being there?
Would you grieve over my death?
I mean really grieve?
Would you even miss me being "the boss"?
Would you really mourn my loss?
You see, I doubt you would.
Because we never really were tight.
We'd bicker, yell, scream, and fight.
I never told you that I needed you.
I thought no one cared.
No one ever said "I love you."
I thought no one was ever there.
Or would you be embarassed?
Be ashamed that we were friends?
Would you be afraid to walk in the hallways?
For fear of hearing or being asked that question
"The one that killed herself, was that your friend?"
What would you say? I wonder.
It doesn't matter though.
I don't know if you need me
or ever even needed me.
All I know is that I needed you, need you, and
will need you.
I'm telling you "I love you."
Because by tommorrow,
I won't be with you.
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Suicide
Slash my wrists
Slit my throat
Feeling the drain of blood
Feeling empty
Days long past passing before my eyes
Have no feeling now
I see nothing but black
No fire, no bright light
No nothing
Just Nothing
Nothing exists after death
Noting not you, and not me
Nothing
Than I awake
With the blade still in my hand
Untouched by my blood
I put it down and walked into the black abyss
Called life.
Literature
Suicidal
How could you know?
How could you possibly understand?
The hurt I feel,
With a blade in my hand.
I hunger for pain,
It cuts deep in my veins,
Crying every night--
Don't come closer,
I might just bite!
Blood gushing and rushing out,
Makes me want to scream and shout
Anger inside, I'm nearly fried.
I shouldn't be here, I shouldn't exist,
I beat myself up with my fists.
Bruises on my face,
I run or I'll be chased.
The sirens are blaring
*Shit!* I start swearing.
In my pocket I pull out a rope
Because I know that for me there's no hope.
Tie it to the bridge, then goes my neck,
Turn my head side to side, just to check.
Jump o
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Suicide
Im sorry
I didnt want to leave you all
But i cant handle this anymore
My life sucks
I cant handle it
Its taking me over
The thoughts in my head
They kill me inside
But i dont want to confine it anymore
I want to release these thoughts
And let them be real
Dont forget its all your fault
Never forget that
I hate you all
There is one
And they know who they are
I love them
Its not their fault
But i have to do this
Things in my life have been building up lately
Abd i just hate myself too much to let myself live
So this is my note
To say goodbye to eveyone who thought i loved/liked them
so goodbye
good luck in life
i will
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no I am not going to kill myself, sometimes I just have pent up angst that needs to be let out creatively...through poetry... I don't know. This is my release. It helps me cope and I just want to thank you all for being there for me. I appreciate the comments and love and I reach out to anyone that has ever felt this way before. I know.. Life is hard as hell sometimes.
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I feel this wa ALL THE TIME.. I jost got my friend stolen by a horrible person, before tha I have up my main friends be with her then she basicly followed someone else and I feel like everyone's better than me in everything and I'm the middle in beauty ,drawing ,singing, and so much more. They always act like there horrible to make me feel better but I always feel suicidal, I will never kill myself but I just always feel depressed and suicidal.This poem is very relatable in so many ways and I thank you for being another person feeling this way and not just me being lonely.